I started this year with an intent to spend more time in God’s word and build a closer relationship with the Holy Spirit. I have had quite a journey in my faith and I feel like I had come to a place where I was comfortable in my Christian walk and becoming complacent.
I feel like at the beginning of my new life in Christ I had to get my bearings. I went through a phase where I felt like I had to do everything right and I had to be a specific type of person. I was miserable because I could never live up to the person I thought I had to be. It took me a while to realize that I didn’t have to fit in that perfect mold. I realized that God didn’t want me to be that person either. I was getting ahead of Him and trying to force my self to change into someone I imagined rather than let Him grow me into a better version of the person I was. Realizing that I could still be me and be loved by God because He loves me for who I am was such a relief and I felt like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders.
After that, I was faced with the question of, “who am I?”. I took some time to get to know me again. Just for some background on this, I accepted Jesus, got married, had two babies, struggled through postpartum depression and was thrust into life on the road. I didn’t really know who I was after all that. So, back to this year. I made the decision to be more intentional, I prayed about it and guess what, God provided the opportunities. I use the bible app, You Version. I found some awesome plans that focus on the Holy Spirit and how he moves in our lives. I also just started BSF, Bible Study Fellowship online and guess what it is about, the book of Acts! If you don’t know, this specific book is set right after Christ is resurrected and the Holy Spirit comes to dwell in man.
It has been super exciting and I really feel like my faith has grown stronger than it ever has been. I encourage you, if you aren’t already spending time daily with our Lord, to be more intentional. He will transform your life!